4/19 musings
4/19 has always been an important date for me, along with a few other 19s, arising from my jail experience in '69. Those dates are resonating more than usual this year. It's not a round-number anniversary. Maybe the Trump affair reminds me of the Gene McCarthy affair. Who knows.

The whole mess taught me everything about human nature, civilization and government. Broke the leftist lie about genes; learned that criminals and non-criminals are innately different, whites and blacks are innately different, wanted and unwanted are innately different. Learned that my innately determined place in human civilization is at the bottom of the stack. Occasionally useful but never wanted as a friend or mate.

Part of this learning arrived late. My parents had always blamed me for their need to leave Ohio and find a lesser job. 30 years later I learned that my father had been fired before the whole mess started. Tenure-track job, didn't publish anything.

The draft and the cops taught me everything about government. My wealthy housemate was never arrested or even bothered, though the cops found most of the pot in his room. Wealth deletes all sins. The cops who had arrested the "notorious narcotics ring" were later jailed for corruption. Among the "notorious narcotics dealers" who did end up in prison, the only one who had a previous record got out before the rest of us because he was a football player and couldn't miss summer practice. His #life mattered. The one who was most politically active served a year more than the rest of us.

All you need to know.

I remembered most of this advanced education, but I forgot the part about government for a long time. In the '90s, after 20 years of correct understanding, I picked up the Wilsonian/neocon bug and stayed with it until 2007. The return to normal was assisted and reinforced by the TARP thing in 2008, but basically doesn't require an explanation. The departure from sanity in 1992 is a complete puzzle.

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