Tuesday, December 17, 2013
Useful dream
Lately I've been feeling a bit more stressed than usual from dealing with publisher. Hurry up and wait.
Yesterday I got into one of those "Hmph. What's it all for?" moods. This usually indicates full moon, and (checking online) sure enough today is full.
My dream generator provided a sufficient answer just before waking this morning.
Someone had herded me into a restaurant on the promise that a couple of Hungarian girls would provide conversation and companionship. (Why Hungarian? Who knows?) I went into the restaurant, which felt like a large Subway or Taco Bell. Ordered rice pilaf (Why? Who knows?) and sure enough the Hungarian girls came over, sat with me, ate hamburgers, and talked at me in nearly incomprehensible pidgin English.
After a while they moved off, and I realized my pilaf had never arrived. The Hungarian girls left me with an empty belly and the check. I paid the check, which came to $29.45. (Why? etc)
I thought: "Well fuck. This is enough money for three full days of eating. Now I've spent three days of food money and in return got no food and no meaningful companionship. This is ridiculous! It must be 2:15, time to wake up." Woke up, and of course it was 2:15.
Thanks, dream generator. That's what it's all for. Companionship is fleeting and dubious and expensive. Having enough money to live and eat is solid and definite.
Or putting it another way, the dream was instructing me: "You're an introvert. Companionship works for extroverts. It doesn't work for you. Suck it up and live with it."
¶ 3:00 AM 
